| From The Weekly Standard: Dear Diary, I Think I'm in Love The confessions of Arthur M. Schlesinger Jr. by P.J. O'Rourke 12/31/2007
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C.S. Lewis, Bruce Springsteen, The New York Yankees, The Beatles, Carolina basketball, pop music, books, movies, art, culture, Christianity, conservatism, religion, politics, sports and whatever seems worth talking about. "Creature comfort goals/they only numb my soul/They make it hard for me to see.
My thoughts all seem to stray/to places far away./I need a change of scenery."
| From The Weekly Standard: Dear Diary, I Think I'm in Love The confessions of Arthur M. Schlesinger Jr. by P.J. O'Rourke 12/31/2007
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Music has been an important part of my life, but never more so than when I was a teenager.
Music gives voice to feelings, fears, even rage. Music is the release that so many of us desperately need. That's likely why music fans embrace many kinds of music.
When I was growing up, I was as much a fan of Led Zeppelin as I was of John Denver, as much a follower of Pink Floyd as Dan Fogelberg.
Each artist's work served a different purpose, filled a different void.
Fogelberg died last week of prostate cancer. And as it is whenever an icon of your youth dies, his passing left me sad and feeling old.
Say what you will about the native Illinoisan's celebrity - Lord knows he was not a fan of the media - to a teenage girl and her guitar-playing best friend, his lyrics meant everything.
He spoke to our pain, our self-doubt and our longing to make sense of the crazy, often cold, world around us. I saw him in concert several times.
"Woke up one morning
The wind through the window
Reminded me winter was just 'round the bend
Somehow I just did not see it was coming
It took me by surprise again"
If I am sensitive today as an adult (as I'm often told), I was even more so as a teen.
I circulated petitions among my high school classmates to stop the clubbing of baby seals in the Arctic.
I was an avid reader of poetry.
I was a vegetarian.
And I spent countless hours alone in my room with my music.
No one longs for affirmation more than a restless, angst-ridden teen. Happily, many artists lyrics' seem to provide it. Fogelberg was foremost among them for me.
"Love when you can
Cry when you have to
Be who you must
That's a part of the plan
Await your arrival with simple survival
And one day we'll all understand"
Music often speaks your mind, without you having to say a word.
While Steely Dan, Pink Floyd and Joe Jackson sung the praises of my anger at and ridicule of life as I lived it in homogenous suburbia, Fogelberg offered a more sensitive insight into other deeper emotions: a need to belong and to feel loved. Somehow, he was able to mesh all that emotion with an appreciation for nature - something that has become very trendy of late.
"Once in a vision I came on some woods
And stood at a fork in the road
My choices were clear yet I froze with the fear
Of not knowing which way to go
Oh, one road was simple acceptance of life
The other road offered sweet peace
When I made my decision
My vision became my release"
Fogelberg is perhaps most famous for "Another Auld Lange Syne," a song about revisiting unrequited love at Christmas.
The first "wedding" decision I made after getting engaged was that Fogelberg's "Longer" would be played during our ceremony.
My personal favorite is a song called "Souvenirs." To me, it is the past tugging at the present, asking the kinds of questions one doesn't want to answer, about what might have been, what should have been. That kind of stuff.
"And down in the canyon the smoke starts to rise
It rides on the wind 'til it reaches your eyes
When faced with the past the strongest man cries ... cries
And here is a sunrise to set on your sill
The ghosts of the dawn moving near
They pass through your sorrow and leave you quite still ...
Sitting among souvenirs"
Dan Fogelberg was 56.
Donna Vickroy can be reached at (708) 633-5982 and dvickroy@southtownstar.com.

From danfogelberg.com:
From Jean

If you've paid attention to this column over the last eight years, then I imagine you are familiar with my passion for thoroughbred horse racing.
If I had a dime for every time I've been asked about the sport, I'd have nearly enough coins to fill up a Wells Fargo truck.
The adoration I gained for the sport initially started with what little I could see on network television, primarily during Triple Crown season. Then a few other things and factors came to my attention and my feelings for the sport ballooned.
ESPN did a respectful job of promoting horse racing in the late 80s and early 90s. Eventually I was old enough to visit different tracks and was blessed with an understanding of the sport.
At an early age I was fortunate enough to possess a peremptory command when it came to handicapping. I knew how to make money at the track.
While Saratoga is my favorite track, I've been to Churchill Downs the most, including four trips for the Kentucky Derby. My first visit, back in 1994, is the one I most fondly recall.
My college friends and I left Churchill Downs with thousands of dollars, enough money that made us look all around the parking lot for thieves as we searched for our vehicle. In reality, it wasn't much money. But to poor college kids, each having about 17 extra Ben Franklins, made us think we were on top of the world. Our eternal thanks to Go For Gin, the 1994 Derby winner.
Quality Derby tickets are not easy to come by, especially for college kids. We had no choice but to watch from the infield.
The infield at Churchill Downs. It's one of the top spots for higher education in all of Kentucky. People think a NASCAR infield is wild. I've never seen such behavior.
Every soul is seemingly intoxicated and all searching for a good time and most importantly, for the winner of the biggest race. The rainy weather on that afternoon made the experience even more memorable.
The rain pelted down and since we had nowhere to hide, we got soaked. That morning and day we were repeatedly serenaded by a song called "Run For The Roses" by the late Dan Fogelberg.
And it's Run for the Roses
As fast as you can
Your fate is delivered
Your moment's at hand
It's the chance of a lifetime
In a lifetime of chance
And it's high time you joined in the dance
It's high time you joined in the dance
From sire to sire
It's born in the blood
The fire of a mare
And the strength of a stud
It's breeding and it's training
And it's something unknown
That drives you and carries you home
I knew little about Fogelberg, except for his hits "Longer" and "Same Old Lang Syne", the latter an extreme favorite of mine this time every year. As a teenager in 1989, the only thing I requested at Christmas was a home stereo with a CD player and double tape deck.
Christmas morning I turned the FM radio on and the first song I ever heard on that stereo was Fogelberg's "Same Old Lang Syne". I've never forgotten that.
I went through a number of changes in more than a decade with that stereo but I still get chills when I hear that song more than 20 years later.
The depth of emotion in "Same Old Lang Syne", written and performed by Fogelberg, has an inherent sadness that speaks to what might have been, but will never be.
Prostate cancer took Fogelberg away from us last Sunday at the age of 56. If Fogelberg had this one song to be remembered, it would be enough, for it qualifies as an absolute classic.
I have a 14 year-old nephew, Taylor, whom I have attempted to groom to appreciate all things ancient. All things but music and black and white movies. He doesn't budge in those departments. But he's got to give a little.
I still have that old stereo, although it hasn't been turned on in years. Taylor wants that stereo and I agreed to let him have it.
On one condition. The first song he must listen to is Fogelberg's "Same Old Lang Syne".
Some things just shouldn't changeAnd older cousins can teach you things.
Mine certainly did.
I'd credit one cousin or another with introducing me to or teaching me about nearly every major aspect of life - good food, good drink, good music, good conversation and more.
Not necessarily in that order.
Because they were older (or because their parents were more indulgent than my own), my cousins had all the cool stuff like stereo turntables and album collections and lava lamps and almost anything that was too cool for a dorky kid like myself. But I took advantage of my time with my cousins, I tried to brush up on the cool factor they knew so much about.
I turned on (and off) their lava lamps and watched in fascination.
I rifled through their album collections.
I carefully placed the needle on the 33s.
I listened to their music.
And that was how I learned to love Dan Fogelberg long before he hit the big-time with Longer, Same Old Lang Syne and Leader of the Band.
I was either 10 or 11 when I discovered his albums, Souvenirs and Homefree.
In all sincerity, his early music changed my life. Whether that's because the profoundness of his lyrics or my impressionable age, I can't be certain. But a three-chord progression of any of those songs can zoom me back to a different time and place.
For the last six years I lived in my parent's home, Dan Fogelberg was my alarm clock. I woke up to his moody melody of To the Morning, every single day.
Yes, the repetition of his tunes didn't wear nearly as well for the rest of my family. My younger brother still refers to him as Dan Eatabooger.
Even still and though my brother, Robin, won't admit it now, the best time the two of us ever had together was the one time we propped the giant stereo speaker beside the front window of our house and blared the Fogelberg tune, Live in the Country, loud enough until the neighbors complained. But before they did, my brother and I danced like crazy children.
The song spoke to both of us. My brother only wanted to live in the country and though, it certainly wasn't my choice of the albums, I was happy that, even if just for a moment, someone else could share in the joy the music brought me.
To where the sky meets the land
And the living is not planned
And the children can laugh just cause they're living
I spent most of last weekend with my family, including many of the cousins who shaped so much of my youth. On Sunday night, when I got home, I learned that my man, Dan, had passed away after a three-year battle with prostate cancer.
The news took my breath away. I spent the weekend with so many cousins - all so alive and vibrant. Somewhere in my convoluted mind, Dan Fogelberg and his music played a role in the relationships I had with the very people who introduced me to him and listened to him with me. That was the me they knew best.
Moments after I learned of Dan's passing, I shooed my family away and sat and listened to the music of my youth. I cried for a good hour. I was happy the songs weren't totally cheesy. I was happy that I still liked the music and understood why it mattered so much to me.
Love when you can
Cry when you have to
Be who you must
That's a part of the plan
Jan Risher is managing editor of The Times of Acadiana. Her column appears on Sundays. E-mail her at jan. risher@timesofacadiana.com.
William F. Buckley